Death

So remember when I blogged about " appreciation " ?

Yeah trust me you really should appreciate okay.

So recently, my fav uncle who isn't blood related to me, past on and he's watching me from the heavens.

He left me on 14th august (( my bro's birthday ))

I don't know, it's like he was a super amazing uncle. I regret not keeping in touch.

But who knew. Sigh.

He was a christian who really loved and respect god.

He knew me since I was a fetus and he always did the best to make me smile.

He would scold me when I didn't finish my math homework he gave,

He would scold me when I threw my vege away,

He would comfort me whenever I had a nightmare,

He would insist to give me and my family the best,

He would save the best for me,

He would compliment me for everything stupid i did,

He was always there for me.

I last saw him last year, and he had a throat operation and couldn't eat solid food and could only drink special milk.

I never knew he would leave us so early and I still can't believe he left us. God must have wanted him next to him huh. Then now my aunt is really sad and I feel terrible cause I can't do anything for her. She must be really affected and shocked and lonely. Sigh.

Mama chei then told me " for people in our age, even being able to wake up and see day light is already a bonus ".

Sigh. uncle lawrence, i know you left us already, please look over my family and aunt mary.

We miss you so much and we love you so much.

I'm really sorry i didn't visit you much. But at least you don't need to be in pain everyday, now you're finally free :')

I still can't believe you're up there sigh please rest in peace and i love you x

Fall

(( outfit for the band event ))

 (( Gardens by the bay ))

(( stephanie's house hahah sleepover that night ))

meow 

(( Legs ))

It's amazing how time passes so fast. It's already going September, gosh.

Sometimes, I feel it's too fast, I can't even catch up.

This year sure was amazing though.

Okay so for the past few days, It was just non stop mugging.

There were like tests everyday ugh.

Anyhow, I really look forward to the upcoming holiday.

It's " fall " ! I can't wait haha.

August was a tough month, I went through a lot. But well, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

August was basically just all about my thoughts, new discoveries, flashbacks and mugging.

Also, suddenly it's like I started communicating with people I drifted apart from. Although It's still damn awkward, It's gonna be all alright as long as both try!

So like I said above, New discoveries.

I got closer with a lot of people I never knew I would be close with ahah.

I discovered so much.

And I have this obsession with Lenka, dubstep and imagine dragons!

They are just perf.

roarr hahah music makes me happy, helps me stop overthinking and salvages my confidence :')

Sigh mama chei been recently talking to me about my future. I feel so afraid to grow up.

It's like soon, I'll be all on my own, earning money. Sigh.

I tried picturing myself 20 years down the road and I swear I felt afraid. 

after seeing my seniors stressed, I don't know sigh

Okay since the holidays are coming up, I figure I'll have enough time to blog again. Maybe I'll do some fun post ahahahah look out alright xx

  

sad

Basically, this post isn't gonna be the usual ones I post hahha.

It's gonna be more personal i guess.

It's been pretty bad for me hhaahaha,

So for the past month, I have to admit I went through things I've never thought I'll go through

NEVER I swear.

It's like things just never stop getting from bad to worst. 

And I have to say I wasn't able cope with it hahaha.

But well at least now I'm all mighty again. HAHA

Okay. Firstly, I guess that bothered me the most was, when I " lost " someone I never knew I would.

It was like something that used to be part of me was tore off.

I didn't know what to do of course. I was like lost.

Then came the overthinking part, hahah.

I figured it was my fault. Even though it wasn't. I thought that I was a problem.

" maybe I'm the one who causes the problem "

" maybe I was the reason why he/she cried "

Secondly, it was faking it.

I thought if I pretended to be happy, everything would be fine. But no. It got worst.

sigh ahaha. 

Lastly, it was about someone. I'm not gonna say more already cause then it'll be obvious.

But let me just say this. Toying with someone is not cool.

Have you ever consider how she'll feel?

Guys can be so heartless i swear.

It's like they stab you so hard and they don't know.

thanks to my mum and my friends hahaha.

restless nights and puffy eyes were put to a stop.

So whatever it is, just don't be negative, cause it can't solve shit. look at the positive side.

Don't even think of doing stupid things okay. 

The reason why I did this post isn't only to tell my story, and advice you, but it's also so in the future 

I can look back at this again so I won't redo my mistakes.

hahaha I'm sorry if it's damn wordy hahaha

and feel free to kik me @woooolicious if you want to share your story!

Stay strong, lovlies xx